Last night we had chatting on bed till in midnight...don't know why when i heard darl said his ex-loved girl..make me feel so unhappy and jealously...
i know should feel unhappy and getting strange the people is him actually, because of my passed i admit i'm not a prefect girl is most seriously that..although he had straightly said feel so strange because my past..when he say that make me more unhappy and not dare to talk many again..
so that i choose speechless at that time..just keep smile in his front...
before that he loved all the girl was a nicely girl..
i cant compare with his ex-loved girl...i'm not the right one compare with them..cause they're the nice girl..i agree too..
he tell me,
he separated with his ex isn't their fault..is darl problem..cause he getting cant afford the hight hope, scare their family reject him..disliked him..that's why he rather choose separated with them..so they're the right...
now my problem is my passed....my passed make me getting suffer day by day..
not to mention is alright, if mention getting on the sad
...before haven't be back normal i keep thinking it,asked myself if i have one day i be normal back my boy will accept my passed or not?bla..bla..bla..
ok la...now i normal la..after i became normal still keep thinking it..so that when dar talk about this make me mention it again..huh........!!!!!
help me~!!my passed became more serious and so stress now...
i think just only me had lots of problem in my bad life..he can choose other girl is good than me actually..i seem like really really not the right one...sad...
but i really love him....
~T^T~
why i can thinking like this??i think perhaps he was a good boy and me was a bad girl...so that he should love the character must a gentle, mature, honest, pretty and serious girl..
not like me...just only know ''gao gao sha sha''..not mature and was a rude girl style..
hmm~that i was getting a bit inferior actually...how to said that..erm..to be honest that seem like i don't match with him..
not the right relationship with him..so inferior..
~T^T~
..since we became lover i don't have any confidence for myself...the problem isn't about him..is me..
shameful...
my problem have far from ideal...
i scare i cant become his perfect girl..because he loved all the girl is good attitude..and i was many bad passed...although he don't care it..asked me wont think it anymore..but i cant...He was my true love i even more to mind it more than him...
added he asked me tell him about me with T and W the passed story so i just listen to him and tell him..i know he'll getting uncomfortable and unhappy about my passed..
i did get he was felt unhappy..if not why he will take a smoke..
so that i cant sleep in whole night...just keep thinking it till i cried in whole night..=.='huhurrr...but he don't know...after this i'll ok soon geh...
(what i typed at here just only talk my feeling only..he have no any complaining my problem actually..haha..)
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